Getting ready to head to the hospital. Katja let me know he had a good night. She said she thinks he is going to wake up because she said it felt like he held on to her hand. I hope she is right. I am a wreck, I did not sleep much and I went through a box of tissues. I do not even know if I am doing this right. This should be fun, me and Tatianna driving into the city and both of us cannot stop tearing up. Jos headed down there already. I also worried about these kids taking time off from work. Ok, we are going to leave. Dogs are fed, cats are fed, oh crying again. Allie has been looking for Chris for the past couple days and whining because she cannot find him. Shit, I am so fucking useless. I am sorry, I am just I do not know, worthiess. I cannot make this better and it hurts inside so bad.